i don't deny that care-giving and being a housewife and a stay at home mom is more difficult than expected. yes, we do meet with our challenges and there are unexpected difficulties each day, but the biggest struggle is actually the mundaneness of it all.
since a long time ago, i always knew that this would be my end state if God ever gave me a child. i knew how important it was to mother the child, to bring him up in the ways of God, to be there everyday for him and fulfill the calling of a mother. i've sort of looked forward to it, thinking that it would be fulfilling and there would be no better calling.
alas, it is alot more glamourous in my imagination :)
i struggle so much...sometimes muttering and murmuring - am i supposed to feel accomplished by how clean i mop the floor? how well i do the dishes? what have i condescended to?
God showed me and comforted me through this passage:
"Thus saith the LORD, Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, neither let the mighty man glory in his might, let not the rich man glory in his riches: But let him that glorieth glory in this, that he understandeth and knoweth me, that I am the LORD which exercise lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth: for in these things I delight, saith the LORD." Jeremiah 9: 23-24
God reminded me that my pride and all the accomplishments i hold on to are but dust. my glory and my joy should come for this: striving to know and love the God who loves me so and has been so real in my life... and then showing my understanding of His will in my life by doing what He wants me to do and being exactly where He places me.
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I have no idea who I survived the past 4mths of juggling work, Nathan, pregnancy and housechores.. But I truly truly am thankful we served a faithful God. :)
He knows what we can bear and let Him be our audience of one! :)
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