18 months

its been awhile since i came to this little corner.. but something happened that i would like to note, so you and i would remember. 

yes, you are 18 months plus.. and it has been nothing short of challenging in recent times, for you simply cannot/will not sleep well. hourly awakenings, or 3 hours of tossing and turning in bed, unable to rest, is simply madness. we are tired, frustrated, exasperated, worried. yes, the internet says 18 month sleep regressions are normal, and it will pass.. but clearly for now, it has not, and we are forced to suffer long. 

yesterday in the state of grogginess while trying to coax you to sleep at 4am, you suddenly sat up and suddenly told me you wanted to "pray", putting your hands together, and repeating the words in all earnestness. can it be, that you have learnt to recognise that there is a God, a present help in time of (sleepless) trouble? whatever it is, your simple action has comforted my heart and reminded me that even sleep, this priceless commodity, is in the hands of God, who gives it to us. 

so bearing this in mind, we will press on.. night by night. it will pass!

It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep. Psa 127: 2